Life

Last night I was reminded how life can change in a moment. We were on our way to my parents and right in front of their sub we witnessed a car accident. There were two teenage girls in one car and an older lady in the other. The girls were fine and hopped out immediately but the lady wasn't in as good condition. She didn't have a airbag (she had a old car) and her windshield was cracked and her head was leaned forward against the steering wheel not moving. I heard something say she was bleeding and of course not to move her. I jumped out quickly and ran to the girls. The girl that was driving was hysterical. I tried calming her down but she kept saying how she just got the car for her birthday and that her parents were going to kill her. I tried to remind her it was just a car, she walked away from it ok and that's what matters. She was just shaking, crying and really upset. It was madness. Probably 10 cars stepped out to help in any way they could. After a few minutes we decided to hop in the car and head over to my parents as another lady was sitting down with the girls, the medics were on their way and there were lots of witnesses and people helping. I told Jeremy how great it is to see people come together so quickly in a time of need.

My dad rode his bike up to the scene to check it out (this is so like my dad. Ha. I remember growing up we would see a bunch of fire trucks zoom by and he would be like, let's follow them! Ha. Apparently he was in the wrong profession) and Jeremy and I dropped the kids off because we were headed to the movies. By then it was all blocked off, cars were lined up and the ambulances and fire trucks were there.

My dad overheard it was the old lady's fault and sure enough the girls mom did handle the situation like she thought. I felt bad about that, I can't imagine my child being in a wreck and making any comments that you are upset about the car. I'm kinda glad I wasn't there when the mom came or I may have said something to her I shouldn't!

Anyhow, it just served as a reminder to me how fast life can change and how we should live every moment to the fullest. We shouldn't hold unforgiveness in our hearts towards anyone, we should tell those we love how much we love them, life can be very short and I want to live every moment to the fullest! The lady was taken to the hospital and my dad said they had to use the jaws of life to get her out of the vehicle. I'm praying she's ok.

Change of subject. Me. How am I doing? I've been getting lots of texts, emails and facebook messages asking how I'm doing and telling me I'm in their thoughts and that I'm prayed for. It's been so comforting to me and has really helped me heal to know how many people care.

It was a week ago today that I found out the baby had no heartbeat. It seems like forever ago but then it also feels like just yesterday. I feel like the Lord has given me a lot of peace. A peace that passes no understanding actually. I have felt His love in so many ways through this experience and I am so grateful.

The sadness and tears are still there, they come in waves. I'm thankful I have E and G to keep me busy most of the day because I don't even have time to think about everything a lot which is good because that is when I start to get really sad. Yesterday I did have some tearful moments. There are just things that happen that are inevitable that are reminders to me that I'm no longer pregnant. Pregnancy news from others. It's hard for me right now. I am the biggest baby lover you know so I love to hear when friends are pregnant. I still do - but it's hard for me right now, especially when I hear of March due dates. I also received in the mail yesterday the coming home outfit I ordered for the baby. I guess that's what I get for being such a planner. I'm really unsure right now if we will have another baby at some point so I've decided to just hang on to the outfits I've bought, the newborn diapers and the diaper bag.

I know there will be difficult days I face in the coming year. I have a couple friends/family that are due in March and I know it will be hard for me when I see their bellies starting to pop. When they have their ultrasound. And then of course when March comes around and I'll wonder when my baby would have been born.

I really do feel like God has given me so peace though through this. He is carrying me through it like He has in any other hard time in my life and I am so thankful.

Thanks again for all your prayers, messages, texts, cards, packages in the mail (such sweet friends I have!) - they truly have been so comforting to me.

Tomorrow I am having my third and last garage sale of the season. You would think I would have barely anything left but I still have a nice selection of stuff. My hubby's cousin's wife is doing it again with me also and she has loads of stuff so it should be a good sale. It's supposed to be windy and 63 tomorrow! Brrr! It's been raining the past few days so hopefully it won't tomorrow.

Tomorrow also kicks off Michigan Football Season! This is Jeremy's favorite time of year :) I have really grown to love fall. The warm cinnamon donuts at the cider mill, the crisp leaves, the cool and fresh smelling air, jeans and sweatshirts, it's becoming my favorite season actually!

2 weeks from today we are leaving for our vacation!! Woo Hoo! I am beyond excited and praying that Hurricane Earl is done with and doesn't mess with our vacation! I have been looking forward to it so much! We rented a condo on the ocean and 10 of us are going - it's going to be the best vacation ever! I just know it! Jeremy and I were just saying last night how he hasn't taken a week off work since Ethan was 6 months old when we went to Lake Ann so it is much needed for him also. Now try not to be jealous about what your eyes are about to see :) It's going to be wonderful ♥

Well, I start watching little Brady man on Wednesday, I can't wait! I'll be watching him just 2 days next week, then the 3 days from then on. Really excited about it and making a little extra money too.

Well, I hope everyone has a fun and safe holiday weekend. Ours will involve football, my garage sale and a BBQ at my parents on Monday with the fam so it should be fun.

Stay Blessed!
Momma Keri ♥