As we were sitting in the waiting area I kept thinking, "I can't believe we can find out boy or girl if we want to!" but felt I would be able to stay strong and really did not want to know the gender. Jeremy didn't think I could not find out (I'm the girl who counts down the days until u/s day and can't sleep the night before because I'm so excited to find out!) but I really wanted the surprise this time around, and knew I could do it.
We sat down and I laid on the table and I immediately told the tech (who I remembered from past u/s) that we did not want to know the gender. I didn't even want her to say, "I know what it is, do you want to know??" at all, or I may officially cave. So, as soon as she squirted the gel on my belly and saw baby, she said, "Well, baby's legs are crossed anyways so finding out the gender would be difficult today anyhow." I thought that was too funny, as this is the first pregnancy we decided not to find out, and the first pregnancy our baby had his/her leg's crossed.
I told the tech I wanted to see baby, but please tell me to turn head if you think anything could be revealed.
So, the ultrasound starts...and it was so wonderful seeing our little peanut. It finally felt real to me, we are having another baby!! My heart was thankful every time she would say a body part looked normal. 2 kidneys, 4 chambers of the heart, 10 fingers and 10 toes, spine looks good, head looks good, etc. Thank you Jesus!! That was my only prayer, a healthy baby. I truly felt so grateful.
So, she continues to scan, and comes to the butt area and I'm watching the screen and as she scanned over the butt/legs I quickly thought I saw a boy part. I immediately turned to Jeremy and he was puzzled by my look. I looked away, then looked back at him again and said, "I think I saw something. It's a boy." I then said it out loud to the tech, that I think I just saw a penis. She said there is a lot of cord between the legs and went on. At that point I felt super bummed because I felt the surprise was ruined for me, and yet I didn't know 100% if what I saw was what I saw. Ahh, it was almost worse to me than knowing or not knowing!! I thought I saw a pee pee twice, very quickly. At the end of the ultrasound I just felt so unsettled, and bummed out. I asked the tech, "Ok, I know you know we don't want to know the gender...so maybe you are just trying to be nice, but do you know the gender?" She replied no, she hasn't been able to tell and again stated there is lots of cord between babies legs.
So, we left the office and headed to lunch. I was extremely bummed. Instead of the total suspense I had walking in, I felt I walked out certain I saw a boy part, yet the tech said it was just cord. I mean, I have had 2 boy ultrasounds before and kinda know what to look for, ya know? I expressed my disappointment to Jeremy, as I really wanted it to be a surprise but felt now I would just think boy forsure. He said, "Ker, why were you even looking at the screen?" I said, "because I wanted to see our baby! And I told the tech to please tell me to turn away if she thinks I could see anything." Grr.
We went to lunch and I was pouting. My sweet husband, trying to figure out what to do about his hormonal pregnant wife, and how to make it better. I just felt so proud I waited this time for the surprise and now thought I saw something but wasn't sure. I was like, I would rather know forsure, or have no clue...not think I saw something but then tech say it's cord. Plus, I don't know the tech well enough or her personality, maybe she didn't want to be the one who felt she ruined the surprise for me.
So, my hubby was trying to tell me to call the office and talk to the tech. I said no way, I already asked her twice if she saw something and she said no, she will think I'm a nutcase.
Are you impressed with how long I am able to make this story? :)
I continued to pout and eat my tacos while sipping a coca cola. I said hi to my midwife quickly as the tech was walking me back to the room but I didn't have an appt. with her that day, so it was just a quick hello. I wanted to say bye to her on my way out, but she went to grab some lunch.
So, we finish up lunch...me still pouting...and it came to me. I truly wanted to ask the tech if baby was measuring on time! My original due date was December 10th, but after an ultrasound at 8 weeks showed baby a week behind, it got changed to the 17th. I was really curious to see what this ultrasound said and forgot to ask. Perfect, I now had an excuse to go back, and not totally look like a nutcase.
I walked up to the receptionist office, and asked if I could speak with the tech, as I just had an ultrasound and forgot to ask her something. I waited and a few minutes later she came back and told me she already left for the day. Boo! She said Jeanne (my midwife) is here though if you want to chat with her. I quickly said sure, I always love seeing Jeanne, she's awesome.
We went back and sat down with Jeanne as I tried to muster my crazy feelings about how the whole thing went down. I told her we wanted the surprise, but then I thought I saw the boy part, but tech said it was cord, but maybe she was just being nice, yadda yadda. She then said to me, "So you DO want to know the gender?" I said, "well, I want to know if the tech really knows the gender or not, but truly wanted the surprise this time." She told me to sit tight and she was going to go find my ultrasound paperwork. I nervously waited, while I'm sure my hubby was on his iphone looking up something about Michigan football, while thinking his pregnant wife is a bit nutty :)
Jeanne came back with the paperwork, my heart was racing! Ahh! Well, the tech typically writes S1 or S2 at the top of the page, when she knows the gender. S1 stands for one sex, S2 the other. Instead she wrote a "U" which is unknown. I immediately felt better! Ok, if she truly didn't see the gender, I probably didn't see what I thought I did....or did I? :)
Are you bored yet?? ;)
Jeanne looked at my ultrasound pics and said, "I can't tell either and I do see a lot of cord." I assured Jeanne I in no way thought her tech was a liar, I just wasn't sure if she didn't want to ruin anything for us. So this was perfect, I was able to come back and talk to Jeanne and the tech will never know, thus will never know I am a nutcase. :)
I thanked Jeanne for being so awesome, and we left. I felt much better but still wondered and leaned towards it being a little boy.
Ok, let's have a little intermission....take a peek at our sweet peanut!
Cute baby don't ya think? :) As my mom and I were studying the photos, we looked at the second photo from the side...and you can see the one eye open and looking right at you, a little nose and cute pucker lips. We both thought, it looks like a girl face! Then my mom looked at the spine photo, (which I didn't post) was amazed, and said it looked like a dinosaur. Hmm, maybe we are both a bit nutty.
Later that day, I stumbled across a website and got totally freaked out when I was reading about their product and the woman/mother who started the line. Her name was the name we've had picked out for a girl, even spelled the way we've chosen. Ahhh! I then felt it had to be a girl, it was a sign! What are the chances I come to this website for the first time ever, on my ultrasound day, and the owner's name is the name we have chosen for our *maybe* little girl??! It had to be a girl. And no, I will not tell you any details about this website or product :) The name is top secret!
We are pretty set on our girl name, but our boy name, we aren't set. We have one we've mentioned all along the way, but are not set on it, at this point.
Fast forward to the last two days. I had fun with some of the "myth" gender tests, you know, just for fun. I did the baking soda test, result was boy. I then did the red cabbage test this morning, again, result was boy. I was reading about different women online who have done this test, and they were all accurate so far. I even read about a woman who had 6 children, and the cabbage test was correct for all of them! Umm, ok, I'm back to feeling confident this is a little boy. After all, I did see the boy part :)
I am incredibly grateful baby is healthy, that's truly all that matters to us. I will be honest and say, I've been really hoping this little one is a girl, mainly for Gracelyn. I want her to have a sister...especially when she's told me from day one it's a girl baby in my belly...a sister...my best friend. It's the sweetest thing, and I surely don't want to disappoint her. Plus, have you seen how gorgeous my girl is? I'm dying to see what another Harrison girl baby would look like?! Anyhow, pretty sure it's a boy though, and feel I will be totally surprised if it's a little girl. I can't WAIT to know! I do think Gracelyn is the perfect girl to have all brothers. She can hold her own and is a fiesty little beauty :)
Another way I should be able to tell it's a boy, is that my mom thinks it's a girl, and she has been wrong with each pregnancy. lol. Sorry mom, I still love you :)
So, that concludes my novel, "The big ultrasound with Keri". Hope you enjoyed reading this :)
I forgot to mention baby was measuring at an estimated due date of December 12th, but Jeanne will keep my due date the 17th, just to give us more time, seeing as you now have to induce once you're a week late, and we want to avoid that if possible. Either way, I was happy baby was measuring a bit earlier, I should be home by Christmas :)
Oh and one last thing...boy or girl? Would love to hear your guess :) I added a poll to my blogger page, so be sure and cast your vote...it will be fun to look back on once baby arrives!
Much love,
Momma Keri
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